Poetic Musings

Here's a rough copy of my thoughts today poured into the mold of a slightly impromptu poem.

As I sit here today
Surrounded by walls

That are papered so gray
I wonder

Much bigger than mine
God has a plan
He holds my future
In the palm of His hand
And I trust Him
Still I wonder

Is the desire of my heart
One divinely planted
Or is this temptation?
I can’t take for granted
But I trust Him
Yet I wonder

Who can love
Someone ragged as me
Even though I am
A daughter of the King
I trust this
And still wonder

Is there a prince
Who can see past the sin
That covers my crown
And pulls me down again
I wonder

And while I wonder
This I know
Grace covers me
Makes me white as snow
His majesty is seen
He shines through it all
And gives me wings
So I don’t have to fall
So I trust Him
While I wonder

It's still a rough copy-many things to edit about it. Yet, it still provides a since of the scrambled thoughts I have today. So scrambled. Anywho...I'm out like Lee McD @ the Carpentar's Cellar tonight (don't miss it, even thought I'm going to).

Song of the Day

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Gotta Have Faith

Will I believe you when you say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day
Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me
--"Walk by Faith" Jeremy Camp

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13

It's such a comfort to know that my Father has a plan for me. A plan that is greater than I could ever ask or imagine. Yet, daily I try to go on with my own plan for my life. I'm constantly trying to take control and, being the stubborn being that I am, constantly falling flat on my face for trying to go at things alone. It's amazing how different a relationship or a decision can be when God's hand is in it. He has truly shown me this week that I am weak without Him and I cannot do this on my own. This is my struggle. Faith. Pray for me, that I will have faith in God's plan for me rather than taking matters into my own hands. I don't want to settle for mediocrity. I want to glorify God in all that I do. 'Preciate the prayers in advance! On that, I'm out like the weakest link...GOODBYE!

A little jolt never hurt anybody

Do you ever just feel like that little kid that knows not to stick a paper clip in the light socket b/c mom said it was wrong. Not until you get that jolt that shows you just how right mom was do you realize that you knew it was going to hurt all along. Well, right now, I sort of feel like that little kid. Only this isn't the first time I've gone and gotten myself shocked.
I'm horrible at relationships. ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE. I've tried so much to defend myself from the enemy, but it's no use. I haven't allowed God to be my spiritual fortress, so my defenses are down. Rather than hiding my heart in God, I've left the poor thing dangling on my sleeve. Just when I thought that I was growing so strong in my walk with God, speeding down the spiritual highway...I allow myself to get caught up and throw the thing reverse without lifting my foot off the gas. That spells disaster. That's why I'm still up at almost midnight. Rather than whispering in my ear telling me to stop what I'm doing, God is all up in my grill tonight. Thanks God, I definitely needed that jolt! On that note...I'm out like MC Hammer's money.

Hello Stranger!

It's definitely been 10 days since my last blog. I went on vacay last week to Chucktown so I've been out of comission for about a week. Sorry to those who missed me....and sorry to disappoint, however, I just finished cutting the grass around my dad's shop so, I'm not in a very creative/writing/blogging mood. Just wanted to let my readers know I didn't fall off of the face of the earth. When I get into the blogging mood I will be sure to leave you faithful blog stalkers some juicy tidbits about my adventures over the past week. Until then, I'm out like my energy after driving the Kabota tractor all morning.