At a Low

So, I've been massively busy. In this chaos that I call life lately, I've sacraficed time with God for various forms of busy-ness. I can feel it. To my core, I feel it. I feel the chains of sinful nature attempting to wrap themselves around my arms and legs and drag me back to the bondage of resisting my faith. Right here in this moment I feel helpless, yet I know that the only ONE I can fall back on is the very ONE I have been denying daily. There's only one solution. Get back to the basics. I need to spend more time in prayer and more time in God's word. He is the only rock that I can stand on. Life brings many disappointments and heartaches, yet God will stand through the rockiest storms of life. Like the song says, "Oh no, you never let go, through the calm and through the storm Oh no you never let go, every high and every low, oh no you never let go, Lord you never let go of me!" God doesn't let me go. He's seen me through it and now "I can see the light that is coming, for the heart that holds on." Knowing that I have hope in Christ is all that I need knowledge of. So with that, I'm out like me...I was the fat kid in dodge ball!

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It's been a while. I've been SUPER busy. Sunday I moved in at AU and I've been going ever since. Wow...it feels good to sit down and chill for a while. Not really much to write, not in a writing mood--just wanted to let you know I was still here and hadn't fallen off the face of the earth. With that, I'm out.

Thankful

The lunch buzzer just sounded here at Hendricks Fabrication, Inc. and after twenty minutes of listening testosterone driven, Godless conversation I'm thankful. I'm so thankful that God has placed some amazing Christian men in my life that encourage me and set a standard for my dating relationships. Knowing the guys that I know has truly saved me from distructive relationships that could have been detrimental to my walk with God. I know that there are men out there who strive to serve God daily. There are guys who respect a woman for her relationship with God and see her as more than a possession or something they seek to conquer. There are men who treat women as sisters in Christ rather than arm candy to make them look good. Praise God for the Christian men in my life; they are the true men. With that, I'm out like Sammy Sosa on a bat-breaker.

Baby Steps

i ♥ this poem.

I'm Just Me

Have you ever felt God's calling in such a strong and unexplainable way that it brought tears to your eyes? You see something and you just feel it, at the center of who you are--you feel a tug on your heart. I know that God has called me to teach English. There is no doubt about that. A lot of my friends have other callings; some of them being foreign missions. So, this morning (in my state of boredom) I started investigating different mission opportunities that several of my friends have mentioned, only to accidentally come upon one that grabbed my heart in such a way that I seriously had tears in my eyes. I've never done that before, so undoubtedly when that first tear rolled down my cheek, I was like "WHAT in the WORLD?!" Just in case you are wondering, this is what grabbed me--the chance to teach overseas or in South America.
This is the point when I started talking back to God. It went a little something like this, "Lord, I'm just a country girl from Pickens with plans graduate from college and teach at a small high school or middle school in South Carolina. I have to teach in South Carolina for four years to pay back my Teaching Fellows scholarship. I'm just me. How could I ever relate to people from a foreign country?" Then I shut up because the more I read the more I realized how much bigger God is than my plans for me. I found another set of pearls that I don't want to let go of--my future. I have plans for myself, but God has bigger and more amazing plans than I could ever dream of. This shouldn't be scary to me.
This is where I share a little bit more that shows how God's plans are so much bigger than mine. As of right now, if I were to take two summer classes next summer I could graduate a semester early. However, with the extra hours I would have if I were to stay for that final semester, I could possibly earn a minor. I actually considered a Spanish minor...and now God is calling me to use my teaching in places I never imagined. WOW. This excites me! It excites me so much that I just want to start planning everything...then I realize that it's not up to me. This is God's vision. He'll clarify more if I patiently wait on Him. Seriously, look at how He used my boredom this morning. He's using the desires of my heart to fulfill His plan for me in ways I never thought possible. CRAZY!!! After all that, I'm extremely speechless. So, with that, I'm out.