Am I ready?

And yet again...it's been a while. Life has been crazy-hectic. I think I somehow hit the switch and changed things into overdrive. My fifth semester @ AU is halfway over, ALREADY! I feel as if I just came back to school and I find myself studying for midterm exams. What on earth did I miss?! I seriously feel like I don't sit down for a minute, ok I'm sitting down right now, but that's not the point. I'm at work, one of my two jobs here on campus. This one just so happens to be student library assistant. (No nerd comments, please) I'm constantly on the move. I'm on a pair of roller blades on a down hill slope, with no brakes and no where soft to plant my tush. So, I just have to suck it up an roll with it; drinking in the moments as best I can as the flash before me. Wow, I just wish things would slow down a bit. I only have a year and a half left in college. A year and a half before the...GULP...real world. Am I ready?
That seems to be the question of the year for me! Am I ready to take this test? Am I ready to go to work? Am I ready to teach at campus groups? Am I ready to date? So many decisions. What's a girl to do? Thank God I can pray...if not I think I would I would have already been shipped to the luney bin. My Lord, my God is my strength and my song. I would be lost without him and his consistancy! With that, I'm out like my free time.

Guard Your Heart

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" Proverbs 4:23

It is the wellspring of life? Wellspring-origin, fountainhead, source...of life; the origin of your existence, the source of who you are. Your heart defines your character, it is the core of your beliefs, your values and your motives. God sees your heart. Seems pretty important doesn't it? It's not something you should wear on your sleeve for all the world to see, to mock, to steal. A heart should be hidden in Christ. Your source of life should be found in Christ, not on notebook paper surrounding the name of someone who may or may not reciprocate your feelings. God sent His son to die on a cross for you, it would seem a no brainer that your heart should belong to Him. Yet daily we devote our passions to things of this world that will not matter in the long run; to things that will not last.
Sadly, it's really easy for me to get on a soap box and speak about matters of the heart, but it's hard for me to apply this to my own life. My heart has lived on my sleeve for so long now. It's difficult for me to guard myself from the attention and "cloud 9" experiences of romantic feelings, but God has a more consistent love for me. God has a love that will not disappoint me on days when another girl looks better than I do; a love that will not play with my emotions; a love that will surpass any type of love that I have ever known (or not known). God is my rock, so you can call my heart Excalibur. Until my rock releases my heart, I will guard my heart in Him. With that, I'm out like the New Kids on the Block.

At a Low

So, I've been massively busy. In this chaos that I call life lately, I've sacraficed time with God for various forms of busy-ness. I can feel it. To my core, I feel it. I feel the chains of sinful nature attempting to wrap themselves around my arms and legs and drag me back to the bondage of resisting my faith. Right here in this moment I feel helpless, yet I know that the only ONE I can fall back on is the very ONE I have been denying daily. There's only one solution. Get back to the basics. I need to spend more time in prayer and more time in God's word. He is the only rock that I can stand on. Life brings many disappointments and heartaches, yet God will stand through the rockiest storms of life. Like the song says, "Oh no, you never let go, through the calm and through the storm Oh no you never let go, every high and every low, oh no you never let go, Lord you never let go of me!" God doesn't let me go. He's seen me through it and now "I can see the light that is coming, for the heart that holds on." Knowing that I have hope in Christ is all that I need knowledge of. So with that, I'm out like me...I was the fat kid in dodge ball!

Blah de blah blah blah

It's been a while. I've been SUPER busy. Sunday I moved in at AU and I've been going ever since. Wow...it feels good to sit down and chill for a while. Not really much to write, not in a writing mood--just wanted to let you know I was still here and hadn't fallen off the face of the earth. With that, I'm out.

Thankful

The lunch buzzer just sounded here at Hendricks Fabrication, Inc. and after twenty minutes of listening testosterone driven, Godless conversation I'm thankful. I'm so thankful that God has placed some amazing Christian men in my life that encourage me and set a standard for my dating relationships. Knowing the guys that I know has truly saved me from distructive relationships that could have been detrimental to my walk with God. I know that there are men out there who strive to serve God daily. There are guys who respect a woman for her relationship with God and see her as more than a possession or something they seek to conquer. There are men who treat women as sisters in Christ rather than arm candy to make them look good. Praise God for the Christian men in my life; they are the true men. With that, I'm out like Sammy Sosa on a bat-breaker.