Relationships and ministry...to be or not to be?

SO I just got home from my very first, first Wednesday service @ NewSpring. I must say it was pretty amazing. Afterwards I went out with some friends, reason being for my late arrival back @ the hizzy here in E-town. Anyway...a lot has been on my mind lately; a lot concerning God's will and plan for my life. I feel like I'm constantly tugging backward, remitting to places where I am comfortable in my life. God calls us to step out and be radical. Two major things on my mind lately: RELATIONSHIPS & MINISTRY! The relationship stuff is not so major, but this feeling I have that God is calling me to ministry is. I've actually felt God guiding me towards missions since I was at Red Hill. In my life, when I've been my closest to God, I've felt this call to ministry, missions...whatever it is. I just know I want to serve my Lord however he sees fit. Tonight @ first Wednesday Perry preached to the several men who were to be ordained and the more Perry spoke about ministry the more I knew God was calling me towards it. While speaking to these chosen men, Perry mentioned that he wants to one day hear God call him his good and faithful servant and he wants each of the men who were ordained to be there. Well, this made me realize that when I get to heaven I want the young people who I have met through Ignite to be there, not because of what I've done but b/c of what God did with a broken water jug like me; I want to hear him call them his good and faithful servants. Ministry is incredible, it's not easy-but I want to sell the best product in the world. A product that died on the cross so that WE may have eternal life. Jesus is off the chain.
Now, all this being said-it makes me wonder if now is the time for me to even be thinking about relationships. Even though opportunity is knocking-it may not be God's opportunity. Even though I know that one young man in particular is an amazing man of God, it may not be the right time. But I definetly do enjoy spending time with him. I think I just need to get away from everything for a little while and spend some time with God...which is what I'm doing next week! I cannot wait-I get the blessed opportunity to spend next week in Panama City with the Ignite and Fuse kids!! WOOHOO I can't wait to see how God is going to work with these young people. So...from Sunday, June 11th- (I think) Saturday, June 17th I will be in Panama city, but expect to hear all about it when I return. But, I'm exhausted, bedtime for Bonzo. I'm out like sleeping pills at an insomniac convention!