Yes, this is # 2 for today--and that's ok!

Do you ever feel burnt out? Even with the things you truly love? This was the case with me. This year I have been a member of FCA leadership and recently, my flame for this position has been dying. I can't go into detail about the reason my flame was snuffed, but it was. I told our current prez that I wouldn't be returning to FCA next year about two weeks ago. All this leading up to the events of tonight.
Tonight at our FCA meeting we were voting for next year's Prez and VP, it was truly awesome to see the passionate hearts and ideas from those who were candidates. Passion is very important to me.
A little background info before I proceed. I grew up in a methodist church, I came to know Christ at age six, but I didn't know what it meant to have a relationship with God for 13 years, even after I was baptized at age 16. My spiritual "dance" as I like to call it--check out my blog from last July "The Dance" for further explanation--with God taking the true lead in my life happened October 24, 2005 at Anderson College (at the time) FCA. Thus, my passion for this ministry, I've seen it at work.
Back to the voting. After Cida Handal was interviewed, it was apparent that she has a remarkable passion for lost athletes. Trying to emphasize that to the other leaders, I began sharing my own experience with leadership--and I wept. Those who know me know that I DO NOT CRY. I am the strong one, I am the one who carries the weight of everyone else and unloads it somehow without entertaining the help of others. Tonight, my passion poured out in front of my fellow leadership. While my cheeks burned with embarassment and my pride leaked along with the saline from my tear ducts, I rediscovered my love for the ministry of FCA.
So, I've got a lot to pray about. God has blessed me with several options lately. I just pray that He blatantly leads my heart where I can most effectively grow His kingdom. With that, I'm out like the moon--what a BEAUTIFUL night!