Love--the way God intended

Wow...it's been a while...and I have HUGE news. I'M ENGAGED! Yep, Will popped the question and I said "yes"! I'll post another blog after this one with the story, but for now the important story at hand is to explain how awesome God's love is and how God showed me clearly that Will was specifically designed with me in mind. This is going to be a pretty personal blog, but I just want to share how love is when it is the love that I believe God intended when he created Adam and Eve.
Two nights ago I hit a spiritual wall. I realized that I had been taking baby steps away from God since the day that Will proposed (August 4th). Satan had successful distracted me with the happiness I had found in the engagement and the stress of getting ready to go back to school. All week I drove out and back to Anderson to paint the house I am going to be living in this semester. I kept busy--devoting little or no time to quiet time with God. Saturday night, I broke.
I can't explain how it happened but I realized that the look in Will's eyes was not the same. His reactions to me and his warmth toward me had changed. It seemed as if he were looking at a stranger. This broke my heart, and brought me to realize that I hadn't been myself since he put the ring on my finger. Since the beginning of our relationship we have done our best to keep God at the center of our relationship--giving Him the glory for every great moment and praising Him in the storms--and we have been able to tell when the other was being lazy in their walk with God. Saturday night is when I realized just how God has used Will's love for me as a thermometer measuring my walk with Him. When I'm on fire for Jesus, Will is constantly romancing me and showering me with love.
Thank God that Will is not in love with who I am--without Christ I am nothing. Will is in love with the woman God made me when I invited Jesus to live in my heart. I prayed for this before I even met Will. I prayed that God would mold my future husband's heart in such a way that he would not love me by myself, but that he would be in love with Christ in me. I had to wait 21 years and make many mistakes before God placed Will in my life, but I would do it all over again to receive the prize that I have in my future husband.