I think they call it perma-smile

I think I have a permanent smile on my face. #1) God is awesome and blesses me like crazy every day, #2) God blesses me with surprise nights like tonight, #3) did I mention that God is awesome? So, I've been incredibly patient and faithful in a certain aspect of my life-not on my own, with God's help mind you- and I'm starting to see God's reward for this. Nothing is sweeter than God's rewards! I'm really really excited. On that note, I'm out like the ATM @ the "get rich quick" convention.

I answered...

The pool was calling my name, I pulled a few strings at work-so I'm out...by the pool.

CRAZY

So, it's Tuesday morning and I have to leave to go to work in about 20 minutes. The sun is shining and the pool is CALLING MY NAME! It whispers..."Megan, come and swim all day long" as I blow dry my hair. By the time I'm putting on my makeup, it's SCREAMING at the top of it's aqualungs. Geez, I hope I'm on standby today. Summer has a hold on me and I have "workitis," self-diagnosed of course.
Anyway...on to more important things. Lately God has really been speaking to me about faith and patience. I've been reading the book of James and the messages over the past few nights have been to have faith and show it in your deeds, Godly wisdom, and submitting myself to God. This pertains to all aspects of my life right now. It's just amazing how God's word is so relevant even after so many years. WOW! God blows me away. So does laughing. And so does being crazy and having fun...and I heard this song yesterday @ work that reminded me of a friend of mine, it's definitely my song of the moment!

Same Kind Of Crazy: Delbert McClinton

Did you ever meet somebody who likes all the same things you do?
Somebody who can make you or break you any time they want to?
I met her at a red-light, love at first sight, can this be true?
Well, she's good for me an' she told me I was good for her too.
Now I don't wanna jump into anything,I been tryin' to use some self-restraint.
But, man, it's amazin': she's the same kinda crazy as me.
It's gettin' hard to use a ladder 'cause I keep climbin' down just to kiss her.
An' if she's out of my sight for a minute or two, I start to miss her.
We stay all tangled up in each other's arms an' it's so nice.
She talks in her sleep but she always gets my name right.
If there's anything at all that's wrong with her,It's somethin' I just can't see.
Ain't no doubt about it: she's the same kinda crazy as me.
Wild, wild nights,Chasin' each other through the moonlight.
My, my, my, I finally got somethin' right.
'Cause every little offbeat move she makes, just suits me to a tee.
There ain't no doubt about it: she's the same kinda crazy as me.
Instrumental break.
Wild, wild nights,We're chasin' each other through the moonlight.
My, my, my, I finally got somethin' right.
'Cause every little offbeat move she makes, just suits me to a tee.
There ain't no doubt about it: she's the same kinda crazy as me.
You know what I'm sayin? She's the same kinda crazy as me.Oh, yeah.

So on that note...I'm out like straight jackets @ an insane asyulum.

Over the edge

I'm so glad that I am a new person in Christ. In the past I would put my emotions in the hands of boys who I thought cared about me and leave it up to them to make me happy. Now I have joy rather than happiness. A joy that can only come from God. Happiness is based on a situation...and right now I don't got any (isn't that a beautiful sentence coming from an English major?). Anywho, the point is that guys have always let me down. I'm over the edge now and it is going to take A LOT to let anybody get anywhere remotely close to my heart. In fact, my heart is SO hidden in Christ now that a guy is going to have to go through God to get to it! I like this. :-) On that note, I'm out like my heart used to be on my sleeve!

1 Timothy 1:15-16

"Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners--of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life." 1 Timothy 1:15-16

Wow...those verses are SO powerful. To think that God took a sinner like me and turned my life around so that others would see His patience. As messed up as I am, He is using me. WOW! That's all I can say. I think those verses say enough. I'm out like a porch light in the ghetto.

What's love got to do with it?

Most have come to the conclusion that when you are looking for love, you are not going to find it. This has been my recent mantra, "Do not try to find love, love will find you." I'm still struggling with trusting God with this aspect of my life. But I continue to pray that God will take this from me and let His will be done and not mine. I still think about what it will be like though, that one true love. I think I've loved before, but I haven't found that ONE love. The one where you just KNOW it's the right thing. Lately this has been on my mind a lot because it seems I'm the only single girl in the world. Many of my friends and family are getting engaged and are in serious relationships where engagement is on the horizon. Yes, this is scary to me. But, I'm not in any rush to be where they are. When it happens it will happen. And he is going to be AMAZING! I was thinking about this earlier this morning and I just started writing...and this is what came out. Just a flow of thoughts to that ONE love that I am going to have one day.

One day we will finally meet face to face
Maybe we’ll smile
Maybe we’ll pass by and not even notice one another at first glance
Or maybe we have already met
And simply not taken the chance to know each other
For anything other than friends
But in that moment
In that first time we kiss or that first long glance
Something is going to overwhelm us
A feeling like we’ve never known before
A smile that we can’t wipe off our faces
A churning in our guts that makes us want to explode
And we will know
Simply, just know
That we were meant to be together
That God’s hand was in this
And that He placed us together for a reason
Until then, I will try to wait patiently
I will try not to waste my kisses and hugs
I will do my best to be the best woman I can be
Because I know you are going to be amazing
A man so astounding that it takes my breath away to know you
So astounding that I want to serve you
And give you a love like you have never known
I can’t wait until that day when our eyes meet in love for the first time
When we go on that first date
And we can hardly sit still for the butterflies and excitement
It’s going to be nothing like we’ve ever felt or known
I hope you are ready
I am

So, I am ready to meet him...and just let things happen. That's the beauty I've missed all along. I've rushed things and missed the beauty of the growth of love. How cliche is is that love is like a flower, but it's so true! You cannot take a flower from its seed and expect it to be the lovely flower that is going to take time to grow. Just like love that is expected to be beautiful from the start...it's not going to happen. A seed of friendship, a sprout of a relationship, and a bloom of love all come with time and the hand of God providing the vitalities that are needed in a healthy relationship. Without time and without God, the relationship will die just like a flower without water and sunshine. So, the key ingredient is time...even though I'm ready, I am willing to wait for a love sent from God. I like this quote from Oscar Wilde, "If you're not too long, I will wait here for you all my life." On that note, I'm out like Elton John. I'm sorry, that was so wrong!

Where is the love?

Wow...I think I'm at that age. You know, the one where all of your friends are falling in love and gettin married, and some are even having kids. I could probably name at least 10 of my friends who have gotten married, engaged, or are planning engagement in the past 6 months. Looks like love is in the air, for some people. I'm not one of them. In the past, this would have irked me to no end. I would be ripped at the seems, feeling like I was alone b/c it seemed like I was the only person I know who was not in love. But not now. I've recently reached a record time of being single, and it's not a bad thing. I'm not in a hurry to "find" love. Actually, I'm not even looking for it. That is the mistake I made in the past...I was looking for it. Now it's time to enjoy life, enjoy friends. The serious stuff can happen later. For now, I'm not "looking for love in all the wrong places." I'm not looking at all. A friend tried to explain this too me at one time, I didn't really get it then. I guess sometimes it takes a little bit of self realization to "get" something. So, now that I've learned that lesson, I'm going to enjoy the blessings that God has blessed me with now and be patiently waiting for the Mr. Blessing God has in store for me one day. On that note, I'm out like a sumo wrestler in a leotard!

Lessons learned

To say the least it's been a while...and life has been interesting in the past month and a half. I really don't need to go into detail because it will only lead to the relaying of drama that is now water under the bridge. From this water, I've learned many valuable lessons. The most important being that it is not wise to try to do a back bend without warning to the person who is spotting you when you haven't done one in like 10 years. JUST KIDDING, but seriously, that really happened. Anyway...the most important lesson I've learned in the past month and a half is one God has been trying to get through to me for a while. When I lean on my own understanding and just willy-nilly do whatever I want to do, I get myself into trouble...hot water, sticky situations, what have you. When I just let go and let God do His thing and obey His will for my life...WOWzers. He defintely shows me that he can do more than I can ask or imagine [Eph. 3:20]. So, even though the past month has been a little bumpy, it's been fun and it's drawn me even closer to my AWESOME Lord! On that note...I'm out like a nudist!